Fear...

And once again fear takes over...

Fear of what the consequences of this mess will be...

Fear that the ramifications of this will trail after me, leaving a wave of destruction behind it...

Fear that God won't be able to sort it out.  That's God's good won't be good enough...

You get the picture. 

I know it's a cliche, but I think I need to "let go and let God." :-)